Inside is Where I Hide

Peel back the layers I hide,
And you can decide,
What it is that makes me tick,
But make it quick,
Cause I might fall for you,
Isn't that the truth,
Cause I care too much,
But I'm out of touch,
With what society wants,
So I just deal with the stunts,
I'm sick of lying,
Cause I'm slowly dying,
From everything I hold within,
Deep beneath my skin,
I hate myself for it,
Just a bottomless pit,
Of emotions and problematic thoughts,
As my muscles are filled with knots,
From working too hard,
I've been dealt another bad card,
But I just stay withdrawn,
I'm gone,
Far from any happy things,
Everything stings,
Cause I've become used to pain,
Used to the rain,
That falls constantly into my hands,
Ruining all my plans,
But the only one I've yet to fulfill,
Is climbing this hill,
And overcoming this sorrow,
So here comes tomorrow,
But it's all the same,
Spilling another name,
Into my head,
Cause it's someone I want in my bed,
But they don't want me,
Cause they can't see,
Anything but my misery,
Instead of exploring the history,
They just leave,
I've got my heart on my sleeve,
But it's filled with holes,
Smoldering on the coals,
That still burn for affection,
But my recent interjection,
Has left me watered down,
I hate this town,
So someone look me in the eyes,
And answer my cries.